Wednesday, August 6, 2014
IWSG: Freak out and throw things!
Ok, to be fair, not all of us are in the freak out and throw things mode, at least not all at the same time ;). But right now that is a much better and more accurate assessment of my writing mind than "Keep calm and carry on". I do love the original British motto, and it helps. Sometimes. Other times you just sort of want to freak out. And throw things. And maybe scream a little.
Usually the epic geeky wonder of Comic Con San Diego gives me a boost of creative energy. And it sort of did this year, I was gobsmacked as usual by all the amazing things folks are doing. But I fear that may have collided with my current stress/overwhelmed state and created a perfect storm of "can't do nothing".
I have now managed to not write for over two weeks and heading solidly into week three. I think it's a combination of stress at evil day job, but also a massive amount of self-doubt and being over-whelmed by trying to get the self-publishing off the ground and still taking hits from rejections from the few things I still had floating out in the trad publishing world. I want to do the self-publishing right, but being able to afford it all is freaking me out. Putting something out there that looks like crap, freaks me out. Pretty much my entire writing world is freaking me out right now.
So until I figure out a better coping mechanism (like any at all) I'll be sitting in my corner and throwing things.
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