Of course, this blog could be titled "recovery from being a writer".
I think I'm finally recovered from the insanity that was RT (Romantic Times Booklovers Convention). The leftover swag (mine) has been packed away, the stuff from others has been sorted, and my free books await me on my TBR pile.
And my writing brain almost completely shut down.
It's back now, I think. Hopefully. At least the demons that come along with writing (or any painfully creative endeavor I would think) have settled down or at least wondered off and are bugging someone else for a bit. But wow, did they take me for a ride.
RT was my first public signing- just me and about 600 other published authors, and a few thousand readers. Just a bit crazy mind you. I did well, sold out of almost all the books I brought, gave away tons of swag, met some amazing folks.
And my brain still shut down when I came back.
I'm editing book two- The Obsidian Chimera, and starting book three. Editing can be a delicate time, you're having to go through and be really harsh with those amazing words you threw down on earlier drafts. You are questioning yourself.
Being at any event where you are out there as a Published Writer, also makes you question yourself. Combine the two and you have a maelstrom of woe and self-pity just looking for some brainspace to take over.
So things sorta shut down.
I spent last weekend really working through it, and having some long hard talks with that mess in my head. Turns out, the mess was just helping me try to process this all (so it says) and in the long run will make me a stronger, happier writer. We can rebuild me *cue six million dollar man music here*.
I reminded myself that I love to write. And if being a writer in today's world means all the other stuff that goes with it (aka not just writing in a nice,safe vacuum) then I need to learn how to cope- or stop playing in the writer sandbox.
So this week I'm still editing, but with more faith than before. Still wobbling about, but I think I'll get through this. And come out stronger.