Welcome to our monthly installment of the Insecure Writer's Support Group!
Pretty much if you know a writer, chances are they are insecure about it at some point. Some of more us than others ;). Once a month we gather online and share our fears, hopes, and dreams. Join us and find more awesome blogs to read! http://www.insecurewriterssupportgroup.com/
First off, a cheer to all the other writers out there- to the ones who have hit the NYT list and get multi-million dollar contracts to those settling into a nice list run, to us just launching books into the wild, and those still working towards that first sale, or even first book.
It's not easy to do what any of us do, and most non-writers have no clue. So I am raising a pint of Smithwicks to all of us- KEEP IT UP!! What you are doing matters, and it is feeding your soul. Nuff said.
Now, on to my blog for today.
As a struggling writer, my one target was to get my book out there. Published. In the hands of total strangers.
Now, granted, I have a number of books, so which one would make it first wasn't clear, but I wanted at least ONE of my worlds and characters out there.
Trad publishing wasn't working for me at the time, so I went Indie. What a long, strange trip it's been! But the book is out there. More books will be out there. I have become the swag whore of Babylon. I have found that I can NOT look at Amazon or I will loose my mind. I have had my first big book signing.
I'm not saying that to be flip, I know the "now what" is to keep writing my books. And I love doing that. Even when I'm stuck and its messy and hopeless and I want to curl up in a ball and sob for a few days. I love writing and editing.
But I thought that having a book out would change me more. It was such a goal, such a "but if I can just do THIS...", that I really thought things would change in my head.
I sort of feel like I'm at this end of this stone pier when I figured I would be a lot further down.
The realization that it is the journey, not our destination (trite, but true apparently) is what is hitting me now. I was so focused on each goal along the way, each step that had to be completed, that I forgot that completing those steps was important too.
Yes, I'm at "this" end of that long stone walkway, but the view here isn't too bad. Maybe I'll get to that distant end, maybe I won't. But I need to enjoy the journey.
That's the "now what".