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It's fitting that today is our insecure blog day as I am now hitting record levels of insecurity. In about two weeks (give or take, because I have learned nothing happens when you expect it to) my first book will be released.
To say I'm a might stressed out might be the understatement of the year. To say I am feeling very insecure and soon-to-be exposed is another major understatement.
If you're new to my blog-I'm going Indie published-aka doing all this madness on my own. So not only do I get to be stressed and insecure about my writing, I also get to worry about the cover art, layout, fonts, formatting, editing, more editing, promo, swag, ISBN's, barcodes for ISBN's, and more!
So you take writers, a naturally insecure bunch, and add a self-employed business on top of it. (Or for those of us with full-time day jobs, a second full-time job). And what do you have? A super freak! (And no, please don't start singing the disco song ;))
I know this is a once in a lifetime moment, I'll have three books coming out this year, and more next, but this will be the only FIRST BOOK EVER that I have. I am trying to relish the moment. I am. Really. Did I mention that I woke up at 3 am thinking, "AMAZON KEYWORDS!!! I don't have any keywords ready!!"
It's interesting how the mind works, the 'oooooo- this is exciting!' part is being completely overwhelmed by the 'let me just edit one more thing' part. I guess that would make sense in the wild, where not worrying, or freaking out, about some wild animal about to eat you as opposed to you admiring a pretty flower, could get you eaten. You would think, after all these years, that the human brain would just knock off the fight or flight response. And judging from my insecure and freaked out mindset right now, you'd be wrong.
So here I sit, being secure in my insecurity, logically knowing if something goes wrong (and plenty has already-LOL) it won't be the end of the world, but emotionally having a major freak out.
Have a great Insecure Writer's Wednesday!